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Im going to write you a letter and tell you that youre free

Im going to cut the ties that bind you to me

Im going to cry a lot and save you a spot in my life

But I have to let you fall

Its so unreal

I hate this

Im not sure what to say to you

I love you I dont want you to go away

But youre already gone

Alcohol is your mistress now

And I , Im just the one whos left behind.

The one who believed in forever with you.

Alcohol I hate you.

Addiction I hate you.

FUCK MAN Its as toxic as cancer or aids.

I cant hate you

I wish I could

I cant blame you

I know you love me

I also know you cant give me love

I want you happy

How is goodbye the right thing

Its all I’ve got left to give you

So be free, fall however you need to.

If you ever get well …

I believe in love despite it all

I believe in love and if our love is what I always believed it was before this mistress came…

Even if we are 80

I believe we will meet again.

I love you.

I lovee you so much it hurts worse than any knife I’ve met

Im strong enough to do this now

I feel like a fucking super hero

I dont know how I do it

I just survive

I’ve just got to figure out how to tell you

Goodbye and I love you

On paper.. fuck I’d love to tell you to your face

FUCK

I find myself saying this a lot lately without realizing Im speaking out loud…

(via im-not-your-star-x)

pain

tired of crying every fucking night.

tired of wondering if you care.

tired of waiting to hear from you.

tired of knowing im not going to give up.

tired of being pretty sure it wont matter.

i dont think I’ll ever hear from you.

breaks me to know i’ll always wait.

fuck you

i love you

i want to hate you

but i love you

you PROMISED ME

you said always and forever

you said you’d leave me NEVER

WHY AM I NOT WITH YOU NOW THEN!?

YOU PROMISED

YOU LIED

a part of me has died.

(via im-not-your-star-x)

you really fuck me up.

does anyone bring you icecream now? Do they know that the ONLY flavor for you is Black Raspberry. Do they know that you start your pizza with one edge and one corner. Do they know that you prefer pepsi to coke? Do they know that you hate your feet? Do they know that you let me touch them anyways? Do they know how to put lotion on your back? Do they know how to make you feel loved? Do they know that I lay beside you for almost 5 years and cherished every moment? Do they know if they hurt you i’ll kill them? Do they know Im not leaving. Do they know that ? Do they know YOU STILL LOVE ME? Do they know you are supposed to be with me forever? Do they know YOU PROMISED ME FOREVER!? Do they know im still waiting for you to follow through with that promise? Do they know ? Do they ? Do they know something I dont? Do you?

Damien Rice - I Remember

i felt like it

im going to get tattoos

im going to dream about smoking cigs but not do it.. :(

im going to buy myself things

im going to work towards going to dinner alone and not crying

im going to try to find my style… outside of jeans and a tshirt, this is scary.

im going to get my hair done..

im going to get my nails done…

im going to buy shoes

im going to buy things i want

im going to randomly do things

im going to find myself

im going to get lost

im going to try

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and half of january.. how many more months are needed until this fucking stops?!?!

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